child-like contentment
Jan 07, 2002
I woke up today and stepped out into the world. The sun shone
on my face, and for a few moments I felt an overwhelming sense
of simple serenity. It reminded me of when I was a child in Troy NY.
My mind was fertile and uncluttered back then. There wasn't a
thing in the world to worry about. Adolescence was filled with sex and school and jobs and trying out different identities. Different cliques and circles I ran in. I drove myself further and further exploring all the different flavors that the world had to offer. Testosterone had to be the biggest driving forces during this time. The child's mind gave way to theories and science and politics and computers. Complexity.
For all the adventure and money and social agility it brought me, I have come to miss that child-like contentment. I think that part of becoming a complete adult human being is learning how to consciously choose what kind of person you want to be, what things are worth keeping in your life, and settling on some balance between intelligence and contentment.
Those moments this morning were euphoric. I aspire to have more of them.