To the wind!
May 30, 2002
The $50/month room I was going to rent didn't work out so I instead scattered all of my earthly belongings to various trusted friend's houses. Each item's foster home was determined by who would get the most use out of it. I will be living on various friend's couches until further notice.I've got my computer over at Ben's house. I play with his doggie and get on the internet here during the day. I'm going through severe internet withdrawl. I think it's a good thing though. I'm more like a poor sucker going to a methadone clinic than a broke junkie shivering naked on a curb somewhere. All the extra time I've got now is necessarily used thinking, thinking, seeing friends, reading, thinking, reading, photographing, but mostly thinking.
I'm smack dab in the middle of a drastic transitional phase. I've got almost no earthly obligations at all. I'm up to my neck in future possibilities. It's both exciting and terrifying. I have the feeling that however I grow out of where I'm at now, it's going to be very very good.
I'm structuring which hours in the day I spend looking for jobs, pursuing photography, reading, and socializing with friends, current, new, and previously neglected.
I've got a little money coming in from unemployment, so I'm not starving. No more than usual anyways. Tee hee.
I ran into Amy last night at club DeVille. She was chilling with Travis and her sister, who looks practically identical to her. The similarity is eerie. Later on I got to talking to her sister and the conversation turned to intuition and what's important in life. I slept on my unbedded floor last night and dig some thinking. I thought about unspoken language, what I enjoy about the interpersonal relationships that I currently have and have had in the past, how I want to be, and which kinds of connections I want to nurture in the future.
Good stuff.